stress...

sorry 4 not updating for quite a long time... i've always wanted 2 share something abt my latest work... but due to heavy workload and time constraint, i have no time 2 do so. Obstetric n gynae posting.. it's more stressful then haPpy times. i would say i miss medical ward!! huhu i started in labour room where my 1st week was like hell .many unfortunate, bad things haPpen.. i nearly felt like quiting but some1 told me to be strong n just pray that everything will be fine.... i have never give up, however i really felt that in my first few weeks in obstetric. I was blame for the the things that i do.. n worst thing that i was blame for the things that i didn't do!! sometimes when i'm tired, the thing that keep me smiling is to see cute babies in the labour room. so cute!

in gynae ward... me & aishah is taking care of cancer patient..dealing with this patient makes me feel grateful for the things that i have in life.. n i'll pray that i would never ever have to go through what the patient went through.. i wish they would not have 2 suffer... evrytime i would always tell myself n 2 them that everything will be alright..but deep down inside i know it's not going to be much better... hope that they will always be strong...i'm still hoping for rainbow after

heavy rain..

i have 2 endure this posting for another 2 months... wish me luck...

my life.....

my life has change a lot since i've started working as a doctor... believe me..it's very much different then being a medical student.. it's a life with full responsibilities... i'm currently working in medical ward P2, hospital Kuala lumpur.. it's the busiest medical ward in msia with 60 beds & 15 extension beds on active days.. with only 6 housemans around, can u imagine how's the work load? it's definitely difficult at first 2 get used 2 working long hours, no time for lunch, have 2 rush 2 radiology, pathology depeartment, working 7 days a week. but Alhamdulillah, i've made it through.. time flies.. exactly 1 month i've started working..i had done 3 oncalls 4 the time being.. had my first oncall on the 20th june.. i didn't have much sleep.. only 1 hour that day. the longest time i'm awake is for 39 hours.. from 6 a.m 2nd july 2008 till 7p.m 3rd july.. that was my third oncall.. at that time 2 patients with pneumothorax came at 2 am in the morning.. i had 2 monitor the patients every 1/2 hour till morning. i don't dare 2 sleep as the patient's life is important n i don't want 2 be blame if anything haPpen 2 them.. i think patience is impt in this kind of job as we r dealing with many types of people with different attitudes.. sometimes i can't stand some patient's attitude n loose my temper... usually at 2-5am in the morning when i don't get much sleep... i'm trying 2 smile most of the time, but i can't...Alhamdulillah, i met some great friends, like onni, Thiru n Vicky.. Onni had taught me a lot during my first few days working..she'll be MO in a week. Vicky always there making jokes, cheering me up n helping me out sometimes...Thiru n I have been working for 1 month but both of us had presented at the mortality meeting & conference... i never thought that i would be able 2 present in front of other housemans n specialists .. n i'm so thankful that i did that day! at least we r brave enough 2 face our weaknesses.. getting scolded by specialist is a routine here.. it's painful at times but i guess being scolded is good.. at least, i won't make the same mistakes in future.. i'm still trying 2 get used to people calling me a doctor..hehe

1 of my fav thing is 2 do procedures like peritoneal tapping, pleural tapping and lumbar puncture... it's fun! i really love my job although is tiring sometimes..hope i'll get through my 2 years of housemanship.. pray 4 me k :) for my fellow juniors, study hard n work hard.. working life is much2 harder..good luck!