papa u will be missed...

salam ramadhan everyone... sorry for neglecting this blog for nearly 4 months.. many things happen along the way & i was busy with work..It has been 3months  now since papa left us... Al-fatihah to my father in law, papa passed away on 2 May 2011 around 6.45pm at home due to lung cancer stage 4.. Papa was diagnosed to have lung cancer stage 4 in January.. at that time, he had difficulty in breathing & then investigated in Subang Jaya medical Centre.. Chest X-ray was done & was suspected lung cancer as the x-ray was suspicious of cancer.. they proceeded with CT-scan of thorax & also lung biopsy & at the end of january it was confirmed as Adenocarcinoma of lung with metastases... i just couldn't believe what i heard from the doctor..Papa was very fit, always exercising.. n i thought it was impossible for him to get lung cancer.. but it was already written by Allah... He loves him more..

to recall what happen early that day 2nd May.. i was working morning shift & ended my shift @ 3pm.. n straight went back to celebrate my nieces birthday.. when i reached home, the palliative doctor was there to insert feeding tube to papa because papa couldn;t take orally for the past 2 days.. he couldn't eat because he felt something was obstructing the throat.. at about 6.30 pm, with the help of other children, mama wanted to feed papa through the feeding tube, Ariza was sitting behind papa to support him to sit while feeding. n other siblings were around papa ... n in a few seconds, papa suddenly collapsed n stop breathing... i did CPR to papa a few minutes n then we headed to SJMC...on arrival there, the specialist informed us that papa has passed away..i was very sad n still in shock, i have never seen any family members passed away in front of my eyes..all of us were in shock, i never thought that papa will go this soon..Allah loves him more..

I would always remember some of the advice that papa gave me & ariza on our first few days of marriage , on our way to Klia during our honeymoon...  Papa was a very kind hearted person, always helping people in need of help..i have learned to eat some of the kelantan delights such as nasi kerabu, nasi tumpang, lompat tikam n budu from Papa.. thank u Papa for everything..we will miss you.. arianna will miss her Tokpa so much...